"I would rather read a mediocre book than waste time sitting around with people making small talk."
James D. Sass, Essays in Satanism
"You are so good. So good, you’re always feeling so much. And sometimes it feels like you’re gonna bust wide open from all the feeling, don’t it? People like you are the best in the world, but you sure do suffer for it."
"Missing you comes in waves. Tonight I’m drowning."
"A tragedy, when a mature mind and a romantic heart are in the same body."
Listening to songs on repeat that tell her she’s not sad anymore. She knows it’s not true, but these things take time.
She’s okay alone. She’s mastered it. There’s even some comfort in it. Cleaned apartment. Check. Laundry. Check. Groceries. Check.
Most of the fresh food will go bad though because cooking for herself and drinking too much wine alone starts to get depressing some time around Wednesday.
I am not sad.
But, she is and she knows it.
Spends hours at night trying to pinpoint where it came from as if finding that source would somehow fix the problem. Sad.
"Someday there will be fireworks behind me, I promise."
I’ll be there to watch.
"The only people up at 3 am are in love, lonely, drunk, or all three."
"You will fall in love with someone who’s cold and always seemingly pushing you away. When all is said and done, they will be forever known as the one person you couldn’t get to love you. Unfortunately, it will hurt and sting worse than the good ones, the ones that chopped up your meat for you and picked out an eyelash from your eye and were nice to your mother, because love often feels like a game we need to win."
Ryan O’Connell, The People You Will Fall in Love With in Your 20s
"Sometimes I get so immersed in my own company, if I unexpectedly run into someone I know, it’s a bit of a shock and takes me a while to adjust."
Kazuo Ishiguro, Never Let Me Go